Stress in Meditation is an Advantage

I can't meditate, but If could…Fill in the blank.

But I don’t fill in the blank, I just keep the question open. Which makes Meditation an open uncomfortable loop I don’t even want to hear about.

How do I know I can’t meditate? Easy:

• Meditating feels so stressful
• And Stress feels bad. I don't know what to do with it
• When I’m stressed, I look in a different direction(mentally, I mean). Preferably a direction of nothingness. But stress follows me there, no matter how many times I switch.

Agree somewhere?

Well, I used to agree, but not anymore.

Today’s discovery (while meditating):

If you can observe the colors and changing shape of your particular stress while you take notice of your thoughts and reactions to inner and outer prompts. Then, a stream of insights is available to you.

Into:

• what bothers you in deep,
• what you really care about as a unique human
• which reactions - usually hidden to yourself- are shaping your stand in the world.

In meditation, by definition, you can’t take notes about these insights (you can’t even take mental notes). But somehow, the closeness of these “revelations” to the frontiers where thoughts break the surface of consciousness, smooths the way for this new information to slide into “waking life”.